Talk is cheap because supply exceeds demand

If you have noticed Colton has changed my web site. I don't know how to change it now. I'm at his mercy. I hate to be at anyones mercy. I mean it bothers the crap out of me. I hate to ask others for help. I hate hand outs, I hate hands up. I want to do everything myself. I'm just like that. When I want to do something I don't want anyone to tell me NO. Or make it so I can't do it myself as in the web site. There are big changes happening in my life. BIG changes.

For one big change, Cody moved out and has found himself a place in Medford to live. We are so excited for him. I can remember when I moved out. I was thrilled to death, scared as hell, thrilled to death, scared.. What a wonderful time in his life. Becoming the man he has dreamt hof all his life. He is so much closer to Ashland (Where he goes to school full time) and it will really shorten his travel time. We knew he hated the commute and hopefully will get a job in Medford at one of the Albertson's pharmacy's..

Colton will miss driving with him and he and Caitlin along with me and David will miss him something fierce at the house. He is a wonderful, honest young man and I'm so very proud to be his Mom. He is brilliant and will learn to know what he needs to know when it is time for him to know. He is 20 and his moving out was bound to happen sooner rather than later. I'm glad he didn't really quit playing the online game WOW. That is his connection to his brothers. You take that away from him and he loses the link. The family link he shares with his brothers and Mory, my future daughter-in-law. Now I still have 2 left at home so I will QQ. He knows he is always welcome home. Our home is always open should he need it. Going out on your own is expensive.

I missed Valentina today. I was looking through the weekend ad's and saw a drink she always bought and it brought a tear to my eye. She was real. Not fake, a real person. What you see is what you got. I miss that in my life. Honesty, hard to come by nowadays. I'm so thankful I had the time with her that I got. God smiled on me the day we were introduced.

Tomorrow we are having our first annual "Nail party". We hired a nail technician and she is coming over and putting nails on all of us girls. I called and emailed friends I haven't kept in contact with because I was busy talking to the air and acted like I didn't need them. Too many excuses why we couldn't get together. Anyways, tomorrow we are having pizza, lots of candy, soda (Diet Pepsi) and we are going to use some of the acrylics I bought last year. I'm looking forward to it. I have missed being around my friends for a long time. I can't allow myself to get too busy and forget who has always been there for me. Turning my back on them is inexcusable and I'm glad they don't hold grudges. A girl really cannot have too many friends. I will post pictures.

Tonight David called me because he couldn't get the truck to start. He had tried to jump start it to no avail. I picked him up and brought him home. He was so bummed thinking it might be time to say "GOODBYE" tou our truck he felt as if we were losing a good friend. We have had the truck longer than most of our kids. It has seen us with the good, the bad and the ugly. Anyway, he came home, finished his paper for school and sat racking his brain.

We had just bought a new battery because the shop told us it only had 4o% left and maybe that was the problem he was having. Well, to make a long story short he put something on the cables in the inside that is supposed to be on the outside. He had Colton drive him back to town and wiped it off and viola... started right up. We can only accept one loss a week. LOL. I found this quote and thought it to be what I'm working on right now.

"The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right time, but also to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment."

(That is a nice way for me to say "I'm better than that." Oh, I still think it, just don't say it. Eventually it goes away. Good thoughts replace the bad thoughts.)