Bust a cap in his knee and move along little pervert.

Left to right. Cody, my son, Kenny my nephew (Kim's son) and then Colton my son. My own version of the Jonas brothers only cuter and so much smarter.


Well it is nearly midnight here. I'm not one bit tired. Sitting around all day relaxing is easy work. I'm actually relaxing. There are half hours that go by without my incessant need to be keeping my hands busy. I have Piper here with me in Portland again. It is nice to bring a snuggle buddy. Makes not having 1o dogs on me while away more bearable. Christine drove all the way to OC to drive me to Mike's eye appt. Kyle met us at the eye center and we had a small entourage in attendance. My kids seem to be doing well in my absence. I would think they would miss me but alas not so. Guess they are growing up and need me less and less.





The anti depressants are working can you tell? Hardly any tears and I am looking forward to waking up each day. (Maybe not the part where my little sister, Bonne phones me every single morning and then asks after she has called me 5 times within a minute if she woke me up? LOL) I cried a few tears today when I was thinking about how important it is to me to have my kids and Kim's kids stick close to each other as a family and as "Our" family. Kim is not here to do that so I feel it is somehow on me. If I die and my kids and Kim's kids don't stay in touch and make the effort to love one another I will have felt like my life was in vain. When my Mom died we all didn't speak for 11 years. The worst 11 years of my life. We were still connected by some unusual connection though. I want so much better for our kids.

Love is such an easy thing to take for granted.

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People suck sometimes. I was looking for a childhood friend and ended up in all the drama and my friend is dead. Life does suck.

Aren't you glad I'm really not in the Mafia? Bust a cap? I crack myself up. How do I get out of this mess? I want less drama and more loving. I tried to think of what advice my Dad would give me. That's where I came up with bust a cap. I wonder if I could ever really do it.

Just couldn't resist this one.